March, 2017 | Nicki Gordon Energy Healing

March 29, 2017March 29, 2017

Creating Change Through “I Am” Energy

“Worrying is like praying for something you don’t want”

As you begin to notice your inner dialogue, either through mindful awareness or mediation, you start to be more cognizant of your “self talk”. What I noticed after detaching from my constant mind chatter was how often I made firm, repetitive statements not only to myself but out loud to others – that I didn’t necessarily want to be making. Statements such as:
I’m so tired
I’m so stressed out
I’ll never be able to do that

These thoughts are often so fleeting or ingrained in us that we might not even notice how often we think or say them out loud. The neural pathways in our brain become used to these “I am” statements that we tell ourselves every day, and it becomes very hard to break free of them – even if they serve no benefit.

This often isn’t our fault. The brain is a huge computer and while useful, it also takes a bit of work to change long ingrained thought patterns. Those neurotransmitters work hard to make pathways that make our life easier. So while it’s great to know “don’t touch a hot oven,” it’s not so great to “know” yourself as “I’m fearful” or “I’m stressed” or “I’m unhealthy” – or whatever negative statement you might repeat to yourself consciously or unconsciously.

Why does the brain often get stuck in the negative vs. the positive? A lot of it has to do with our unconscious “fight or flight” instincts that tell us we must struggle in life; for food, or shelter, or safety. This is in our energy fields from our more primitive lifetimes and since the brain is hardwired for our survival – it’s primed to keep us alive in scarcity (even if we have plenty). This is why people often think “I don’t have enough” or “I’m not enough” or “something bad might happen to me”.

This leads to why I love meditating to “I Am” statements or mantras. By consciously feeling the I AM statement you make, repeating it in a mindful way, and energetically sending that signal through your brain, your aura, and the Universe, you can alter your neural pathways, and in turn change your perception of yourself and your reality.

As a small example, I had a terrible cold last week and had to drop everything because I felt so sick. Of course all day I was saying out loud “I’m so sick” and “I feel so awful”. These are pretty firm “I am” statements. And my mind, body, and energy field were responding with “yes.” So I was wallowing in that low vibration and “stuck” in the sickness. After some needed time to rest, I started to be proactive and instead would say “I’m healing from this cold” or “I’m feeling better”. Even when I wasn’t. Amazingly, that simple shift in verbiage helped get my energy into a forward momentum of healing vs. stagnant illness.

This isn’t simply a positive affirmation – you are intentionally feeling the vibration of what you desire, releasing it, and experiencing the results over time. Not to get too woo-woo, but imagine yourself stepping into a new reality as you make your “I Am” statement. A reality that’s right here, yet in a different and higher vibration. Where that sickness doesn’t exist anymore. Some people refer to this as Quantum Jumping.

Whatever you state in the affirmative – expect it back. There’s real truth to the saying “fake it ’till you make it”

This can be used on a small scale for annoyances like a cold or aches and pains, or for more in-depth things like losing weight, getting a new job, or dealing with chronic disease. For instance, rather than saying “I need to lose weight” – change the wording and simply say “I am at a healthy weight”. Your brain and energy field don’t know this isn’t true – and stating where you want to be then gets that momentum going. Change your energy to think you are already where you want to be – for example, at your ideal weight. Then rather than struggling, your results will unfold with divine timing: smoothly and in your best interest.

Below is a simple mediation you can try to encourage your brain to make new neural pathways and to create or manifest something energetically in your life. You can invite whatever you’d like into your life and the Universe will always respond with “Yes”. That’s why it’s so important to be mindful of what you’re inviting in! Is it for your best interest or not? Send out enough positive or negative “I Am” statements and that will be what you see around you.

It can take at least 3 weeks to form long lasting thought pattern changes in the brain – so keep at it. While energy, chakra, and aura shifts can occur in one mediation it does take longer to train the brain. And both are part of the process.

Here we go:
-Find a quiet place to sit, with your feet on the ground, for at least 10 min.

-Take a few deep breaths into your belly and fill your whole body with air, then slowly exhale

-Relax your body, releasing any tension you’re holding

-As you exhale, say in your mind (or out loud if you prefer) your “I Am” statement
For example, “I am healthy”. Feel what this statement means to you and do your best to imagine it’s already true and it is your reality.

-Then as you inhale, simply state “I Am”

Repeat this to yourself over and over with each inhale and exhale. You’re now energetially telling the Universe/Source/God what you want. Exhale and send the thought energy out – then as you inhale – you receive that new energy into your body as an affirmative acceptance: “I Am”.

As you make this a daily practice, think of each new day as a blank slate. You have the power to alter the energy of the day in whichever way you’d like. Each time you mindfully change your self talk, the easier it gets. Before you know it, your new neural pathways and your vibrant, open energy field will seek out and welcome the experiences, the people, and the lessons that fit in with and support your “I Am” statements. Your life takes on a magnetic quality, where all your “I Am” intentions are played out in the story you are creating that is your life.

Get creative with it and see what you can welcome into your reality…

In gratitude,
Nicki

March 17, 2017

When It’s Not All Sunshine & Rainbows: Examining The Shadow Self

Laugh and Cry
Live and Die
Life is a Dream we are Dreaming
-“Then You Look At Me” Horner/Jennings

One of the reasons people shy away from getting to know their Divine Self, or their higher self, is they don’t want to face the uncomfortable feelings, or memories, or certain aspects of themselves that come up when choosing to live a life of awareness. When we wake up.

Even the most spiritually awakened humans at times have feelings of self doubt, fear, anger – dense, low vibrational thoughts. Why? Because we are human in this go-round; we are on Earth to learn and grow. And while we are made of light, we also have a “Shadow” Self. Although you might not be familiar with the term, you will likely recognize the feeling.

The Shadow Self is that part of us that usually lies dormant, that comes out in moments of fear and judgement and self doubt. Don’t get this confused with the word “evil”. Because all of the energy in and around us, light and shadow, good and bad, is of the same Source. The Shadow Self is part of us, part of our personality, and our soul.
(Besides, what is “evil” really but a light fully lost in the shadows?)

We as individuals all have a Shadow Self and since we’re all connected, society as a whole has it’s own Shadow Self.

As more people wake up to their Divine Self, the aspects of our Shadow Selves are being seen and acknowledged – they are coming out in full force for us to address so they can lose their hold on not only us as a person, but all of the human race.

Let me put this into a global example. Here’s stating the obvious: there’s a lot of chaos in the world right now. Nobody can disagree with that. Notice how deeply held secrets and beliefs, underlying thoughts and strong emotions about race, economic standing, gender, sexuality – are being addressed and brought to the surface. We are taking a look at all aspects of the human psyche – from the good to the bad to the ugly. It’s as though everything is being cracked wide open. This is the Shadow Self of our society making itself known.

All of these thoughts from the collective unconscious are being manifested and “played out” in our world. Remember everything we as a society think – whether spoken out loud or held in the Shadow Self – is a vibration and eventually it will show up in our reality to be dealt with.

Life is co-created by Us…it is a “dream we are dreaming.” While it’s chaos for now, this will lead to more peace in the future as we break free of all of our hidden thoughts and beliefs. With awareness comes transformation. If we don’t allow ourselves to get caught in the muck of it all – true change can happen (see my post on using discernment vs. judgment)

So! What does this mean for you on a personal level?

Are you also feeling the effects of this powerful energy shift in your daily life?

Do you feel full of love and positivity one day and sluggish and depleted the next?

Maybe old memories and emotions from the past are coming up in the present moment?

Maybe things are actually manifesting in your life for you to address and work on?

There are any number of ways the Shadow Self can show up. Self doubt, resentment, anxiety, depression, fear. The important thing to remember is: this is part of you. This is nothing to be ashamed of. Just because you’re on a spiritual path doesn’t mean you’re perfect. You could be dealing with a painful experience from a past life, or from when you were 2 years old.

Why is all this important? Because through recognizing our Shadow Self – and most importantly accepting it – we can then take those dense energies and loosen their hold. However, if instead we choose to not acknowledge them (think of the repeated cycles of race relations, gender gaps, inequality) or shame ourselves for feeling them, those dense energies show up in violent behavior, addictions, and self harm. We can really be our own worst enemy. We see this all the time on the news, right?

How can you work with these energies in a positive way?

-First, when you feel fear or anger or frustration come up – let it. Don’t push it away. You’re not a bad person if you feel annoyed or angry. I tell my kids: “it’s okay to feel sad, it’s okay to feel angry”. If you push a feeling down it will STICK in your energy for days or years or a lifetime.

-If the situation allows, write it down. Or if it doesn’t, simply state it out loud: “I’m so angry that my boyfriend dumped me and I’m scared I’ll be alone forever” or “I’m so frustrated and I hate my job”. This sounds simple, but so often people fail to take the time to recognize their feelings before turning them into something self destructive or harmful to someone else.

-As you do this, remember your Divine Self – either by taking a few deep breaths or focusing on your heart or whatever it is that works to get you centered. By calling in your higher self, you will shift into being an observer of the feeling.

This is the magic moment.

When that internal shift occurs, which is easier to do than you think, you bring conscious awareness to the moment and to the Shadow energy. In fact you don’t actually have to DO anything. Just be in that feeling without a strong opinion of your reaction. You won’t die from feeling a feeling.

Give it space – you will feel a shift as it neutralizes. You might also cry, feel hot or cold, shiver, or sigh loudly. This is your body physically releasing. Always remember we are surrounded by high vibrational energy. Look at all the “empty”, open space around you. When you breathe in that air, it is full of so much that’s unseen.

We have so much power simply in our intention and the power of our breath in the present moment.

Now as you feel this shift, you may be drawn to take action – be sure it’s made from a place that’s in the moment and intuitive. Maybe you are drawn to go for a walk or a run outside – this will get that energy moving. Or maybe you’ll want to scream out loud (let’s try to avoid doing this in pubic. ha.), or punch a pillow, or go fishing, or dance, or paint, or simply take a bath. Go with what your body is telling you – not with what someone else says.

Know thyself – know thyself – know thyself

It’s important to remember this is an inside job. While you can reach out to talk to a friend, it really is your Divine Self that knows what you need and does all the heavy lifting anyway. And the answer will always, always come from a place of love.

Wouldn’t this be a better world if we all acknowledged our Shadow Self instead of pushing it down or letting it fully encompass us? Because even those who are doing evil acts on Earth – remember they’re also a loving light at their core – are simply completely engulfed in the shadows.

I find that as I acknowledge Shadow emotions or moods that come up that aren’t in resonance with my lighter/loving self, I’m now able to notice them and sometimes even use the energy to my advantage. I can be a feisty person and also introspective to the point where I need a lot of alone time. These aren’t my favorite things about myself, but when I am aware of this need and channel the energy the right way, I am happier, I love myself, and I get things done! See how it’s our awareness and acceptance of it that makes the difference? And how we work with it rather than push it down?

Listen to your Shadow Self. What is it trying to tell you? How can it serve you and how can it free you of what doesn’t serve you? If you find you’re not acting as your best self, don’t scold yourself – look within and get to the root of it. Let it know you have your eye on it. By turning your awareness to it, you’re taking away it’s power, and you’re bettering not only yourself, but the whole world.
(please note, always seek professional help if any negative thoughts get to be too much for you alone)

In closing, don’t be scared off or intimidated or ashamed of the term Shadow Self. As I’ve stated before: all energy, all humans, every atom, molecule, proton and neuron, seen and unseen, is part of Universal Energy/Source/God. You have nothing to fear other than living with blinders on. Ask your Divine Self to wake you up. Every day state out loud “wake me up!” Life unfolds in wonderful ways when you are a conscious co-creator.

Need a little release after this? I thought this song hit the spot with this post – turn it up and dance. Get that energy moving!

In gratitude,
Nicki

March 13, 2017March 13, 2017

Using EFT Tapping To Clear Energy Blocks & Lower Stress

According to traditional Chinese medicine, meridians are a set of channels or vessels that run along the body which allow life energy – also known as Universal Energy, qi, or ch’i – to flow throughout the body. When a meridian is blocked through stressors such as fears, addictions, past trauma, unhealthy relationships, or physical pain – the flow of life energy/Source/ch’i becomes blocked. When stress causes energy to stop flowing freely, physical and mental symptoms eventually show up.

A familiar therapy that works with unblocking the meridians is acupuncture. Another treatment that’s a bit less mainstream, is Emotional Freedom Technique, or EFT “tapping”.

According to Gary Craig, the founder of EFT, the practice is “an emotional version of acupuncture, except we don’t use needles. Instead, we stimulate certain meridian points on the body by tapping on them with our fingertips. This has shown repeatedly to reduce the conventional therapy process from months or years down to minutes, hours or a few sessions.”

While this is not necessarily my “go to” way to heal something, it’s still a helpful tool to have in your bag – and it’s easy to learn.

Let me tell a quick story of why I got interested in EFT. Mine was not a very serious matter in the grande scheme of things, but enough to cause me discomfort. When we moved into our new house we discovered it was infested with centipedes. Not just the basement kind – I’m talking in the closets, on the bathroom towel, in the bedroom. It was super fun. Our bug guy said it was “the worst case of centipedes in a house he’d ever seen”. Just what every girl wants to hear! I was panicked. I contemplated moving. I threatened to sleep in a tent outside. My husband thought I should see a hypnotist to overcome my fear. After looking into the cost of that, I realized I’d rather put my money toward the bug treatment versus an expensive hypnosis session.

This was when I discovered a quick online video tutorial about EFT, and after some simple research, I was tapping away. Although I still don’t love centipedes, EFT calmed me down enough to live in my house while we got rid of them (yes, those buggers are gone). I found that the tapping eased my phobia, slowed my heart rate, and reduced my stress. I thought – if this worked for me after only a day or two – imagine what it can do for people who utilize it over a period of time? And with something more serious like an illness, addiction, or trauma?

One of the reasons EFT works so well is that by tapping on the meridians, it has been proven that the body responds by decreasing it’s levels of the stress hormone, cortisol. Elevated cortisol levels in the body are associated with high stress. If your body is producing too much of this hormone it can cause accelerated aging, disease, anxiety, and depression. Numerous studies have demonstrated that EFT tapping decreases cortisol in the body by at least 25% compared to simply doing traditional talk therapy. (you can find more info on the studies that have been done in a quick Google search)

The core concept of EFT is that you allow yourself to experience and feel the painful memory/thinking pattern/pain/stress – whatever is bothering you – while tapping on specific meridian points on the body. This way you are not simply talking about the stressor – you are also telling your body (through the meridians) that you can be in a calm state even when faced with a certain memory, feeling, or stimulus. This is why EFT has been proven in studies to be effective in treating PTSD, or post traumatic stress disorder. Tapping the meridian points allows the release of strong emotional pain associated with traumatic memories.

So how can EFT help you?

Take a moment and think of something that causes you stress. Could it be money issues? Relationship problems? Job stress? Chronic pain? A painful memory? Weight/food issues? Whatever it is, write it down.
Now as you write, notice the feeling that arises in your body. Does your heart rate increase? Do you feel a heaviness in your gut? Do you feel fear? Do you clench your jaw in frustration? Take note of that feeling and/or physical sensation. This is the feeling you will “tap” on.
As you look at your list and feel your reaction, don’t get discouraged! The best thing you can do for your Divine Self is to address the things that are holding you back. As always, if you’re extremely overwhelmed, seek out professional help. But if you feel it is something you can work with – maybe EFT can help.

So as I’ve said, it’s easy to get started. You simply tap the meridian points one by one for about 5-7 taps on each spot as you state what’s bothering you. The image to the left gives you a general sense of where the points are, but please go online to be sure you are tapping the correct spots.

When you do a Google search about EFT it’s a bit overwhelming – there’s a lot of info out there. But remember this is a simple thing to learn that can be taught to children as well – so don’t be intimidated!

If you’d like, here’s a quick intro video on how to get started:

Remember, allow yourself to feel the feeling. Don’t push it away and say “I’m done!”

When you ignore or push away an energy block you are simply putting it away in the closet. That stress will eventually show up in your life and/or in your body. Instead, allow yourself to experience the uncomfortable memory or emotion and just keep tapping.

As you tap, a new feeling may come up that you want to unblock – just keep tapping. Soon your body will respond and you’ll notice a new calmness when faced with whatever trigger you’re addressing.

Or you can learn from an EFT practitioner in person.

I recently attended an EFT class taught by Julie Jacky at The Metamorphosis Center to address money blocks (an interesting subject to dive into). Julie was an informative instructor, she spoke about how EFT helped her, and I learned a lot about the process. One thing Julie taught that I’d like to pass on is: be sure that while you tap you are focusing, talking about, and feeling the negative or uncomfortable thing you are clearing. She described it as “tap the crap”.

While some newer forms of EFT may try using positive affirmations, the original concept of the practice is to allow the uncomfortable feeling to arise, then tap on that specifically. You are freeing yourself from the control the thought or emotion has on you.

I hope you’ve enjoyed this brief overview of Emotional Freedom Technique. If there’s something that’s holding you back from being your best self, why not try this free technique that’s at your fingertips! (literally!) Happy Tapping!

In gratitude,
Nicki

March 8, 2017

In Celebration of International Women’s Day: Explore Sacred Feminine Awakening

“When women reassert their relationship with the wildest nature, they are gifted with a permanent and internal watcher, a knower, a visionary, an oracle, an inspiratrice, an intuitive, a maker, a creator, an inventor, and a listener who guide, suggest, and urge vibrant life in the inner and outer world.”
-Clarissa Pinkola Estes, author

Every day should be International Women’s Day! How perfect that the world is celebrating all that women are, and all they do for our world. We need more of this energy now than ever. In honor of this day, I’m simply sharing a link to a wonderful healer, author, and speaker named Misa Hopkins. She has a personal website as well as one devoted to healing through the Sacred Feminine Awakening, which I have provided the link to below. You will find many free resources, articles and meditations on her website. She explains the powerful “holding” meditation and offers a free mp3 download of it as well.

https://sacredfeminineawakening.com

I’ve heard Misa speak and she has a great story to share that led her to becoming a healer. She’s relatable and provides great insight and knowledge on using your innate healing abilities. I hope you gift yourself with some time for YOU today. We are only as strong on the outside as we feel on the inside!

In gratitude,
Nicki

March 4, 2017March 4, 2017

Living In Harmony With The Moment

These are the days of the endless summer
These are the days, the time is now
There is no past, there’s only future
There’s only here, there’s only now
-Van Morrison

Think for a moment that your life is a record. And each experience – past, present, future – are grooves on the record. Notice how the needle settles in and plays it’s song as the record, your life, spins on and on. But the only place that really matters is where the needle is now – that’s where the music is coming from. The needle doesn’t fight it. It stays in the groove; it plays the song.

Wouldn’t we all play more grateful and joyful tunes if we followed the path of the needle on the record; the music flowing as it should in the moment? If we drag the needle away to another spot, another groove, a disruptive and unpleasant screech is heard as it’s dragged to the past or future.

So the needle settles back into a groove, back to the present moment, where life and music flows easily. Wouldn’t we all live more in harmony if we took note from the image of the record and it’s songs? Not letting anxieties of the future or pains of the past screech our thoughts away from the beautiful sound of the present moment? We find our groove in life only when living in harmony with the now. Don’t resist. Don’t fight it. Notice how you enjoy the music of life more when living in acceptance and gratitude of where you are on the record.

I hope you can take time right now to practice this. Below is a song to enjoy; kick your feet up, listen, and just BE. Van Morrison’s voice is what I imagine singing on the soundtrack of my life. It has the ability to bring me out of my planning or worrying and just enjoy the music.